The last Sunday in July 2010

I am sitting at the computer in a quiet house with the sounds of birds singing echoing from outside. I am searching for explanations as to why bad things happen to good people. I am desperately trying to make sense of why my friend and former colleague is suffering right now. I want to keep the faith reminded that if my faith was as strong as a mustard seed's , I could move mountains, yet I struggle with my understanding and acceptance of God's plan and purpose. I have not lost my faith, but as usual, I wrestle with my Father as I try to come to terms with this unthinkable situation. Yet, my friend who is suffering has accepted God's divine plans for him. If he can accept it then why can't I? So I send out this prayer on the last Sunday in July of 2010. "God, it is I, Rachel. Please be with friend, JJ, during this difficult time. I pray that you lay your healing hands on him. And Father, please help me understand why."